Bedtime Story Conservatory 64 30/05/2020
Hello to all again,
Today, a day of days, the day of the day, the day is upon us, today, the day. And then tomorrow, and then today again, last week, next week, next month, seems very far away somehow.
Today feels a little hazy, like i'm in-between some things, and it's been impossible to accept and sit down between those two things, and observe them rather than move forward. I got locked out of my building because I forgot the key and had to wait on the stone outside, watching the light inside the door, which would turn on if there was someone about to open it. This was the moment today where I accepted, and sat, and it was when I felt the most serene. That situation, albeit not particularly dramatic, meant that I could give the 'responsibility' of my in-between-ness and my haziness and my doing-nothing-ness too something outside of myself, the choice was the doors and the buildings and my past self forgetting the keys, this somehow validated stillness. It's hard to act like this when the responsibility is yours, it's hard to give yourself clarity.
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A scene from Blue Velvet 1986, David Lynch, in which the character Ben, "one smooth bastard", played by Dean Stockwell, sings In Dreams 1963 by Roy Orbison. Electric.
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Today's reading is a book that I sometimes read when I visit my Grandma's house, and one she introduced me to, a second chapter from The Screwtape Letters 1942, C.S. Lewis, a satirical novel dedicated to J.R.R. Tolkien, in which a senior demon, Screwtape, writes letters to his nephew, an apprentice demon named Wormwood, advising him on the best ways to stop a human, 'the patient', from falling into the clutches of 'The Enemy', God.
The song attached to the reading is Paul Dukas's The Sorcerers Apprentice 1897.
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Warmest wishes, warmest love today, to you,
From Sam
