Bedtime Story Conservatory 78 16/06/2020
Hello everyone, today is another day,
I've been feeling a little bunched up today, and just before I recorded the reading today, I got annoyed at my window because it makes this creaking sound, and I called it the C word. I immediately felt guilty after this, mainly for letting myself get so agitated with a window. I laughed at myself, but also felt bad. But then I read this story and I felt a bit calmer. And whilst I was reading I though oo in the email I can put how this made me calmer, and this me more calm, but then I felt like that wasn't authentic because I had thought about it too much, and became slightly stressed again.
"do you ever feel like you are not real because no-one is there"- my friend just said this on the phone to me.
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gNLsIJUybD4
A really nice song I listened to today just after there was summer rain outside.
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Today's reading is Old Shloyme 1913 by Isaac Babel:
"Isaac Babel was born in the Moldavanka, a poor, raffish district of Odessa, in 1894, and died, it has been established only within the last ten years, in Moscow's Lubyanka prison, early in the morning on January 27, 1940. He was shot by a firing squad after a twenty-minute trial held the day before in the private chambers of Lavrenti Beria, the notorious head of the K.G.B.'s predecessor, the N.K.V.D. Babel was convicted of "active participation in an anti-Soviet Trotskyite organization" and of "being a member of a terrorist conspiracy, as well as spying for the French and Austrian governments." He had confessed, during the previous eight months of imprisonment and interrogation, to charges of espionage, but his last recorded statement protested, "I am innocent. I have never been a spy. I never allowed any action against the Soviet Union. . . . I am asking for only one thing—let me finish my work."
Old Shloyme was Babel's first writing, written in Russian when he was 18:
"His first published story, "Old Shloyme," written in Russian, appeared when he was eighteen and concerned the controversial matter of coerced Christian conversions under tsarist laws."
Trigger warning: the text does contain suicide.
It's beautifully written.
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Warmest wishes today, I love you a lot,
Sam
